Sorry I haven't been around on my blog lately, so much going on physically, mentally, spiritually and all that stuff. On the physical aspect, Spring is here and that means cleaning, chopping wood for next winter, organizing, enjoying nature although I havent been feeling so great lately.
Spiritually and mentally, I'm feeling challenged. Some days I feel great and feel God's presence. Other days, the feelings of doubt and frustration take over. I am trying to really understand God and his plan, although I need to really be willing and not afraid. Easier said than done.
There's a sense of lacking being close to anyone. Now don't get me wrong, I am closer to my husband now than before, but the friendships and relationships I had in Miami, feel so stretched out...literally. Some days I get upset but Id rather stuff it down. Im not sure if they realize than how important a relationship is still needed no matter where a person goes. Swedes are nice and beautiful people in their own way but their culture is very different from mine. I don't feel very personal here. I base relationships on where they can help one another with and where they are heading to. If they can truly know me through the good and bads and if they are living with a purpose and know wisdom from wrong deeds, then I know I can be the same back.
I need to pick myself up and look straightforward, but some days, I know that I need to let all my emotions out so I can get back up again.
Besides all this going on, I have started my SFI (Swedish For Immigrants) and it's been exciting. I will meet new people and do my best. I've also discussed some plans with my husband about the future and things that I want to accomplish. ..more on that later. But so far, I want to do more natural things and share them along here.
Well, this is it for now. It's raining here and I have a nice cup of tea :)
Sleep well and blessings.
